will they ever guess these words were written about you?
or will the details fade as our memories age
until you take the shape of some generic long-lost lover
will they ever guess all the time we spent
how you smiled at me
all the words we sent that were just for us to see
will they be able to tell how strongly I felt
you were different
how you acted shy
how I laughed
how you gave me butterflies
how for the first time in a long time I didn’t know how to act
how just the sound of your voice left me electrified
how badly I yearned to feel your touch and taste your kiss
how much it kills me that I never had the chance
will they understand
how in just a short time
you could be an integral part of my life
how I would have done anything
for someone who asked for nothing
just how much you mattered to me
and how my heart shattered when
you took the part I couldn’t bear to lose, took yourself
and vanished
do you think when they read these words they will see
the empty silence filling spaces between each one
or the stains on these salty pages
will they see how much time I spent obsessing over
what if’s and wherefores
the guilt
the regret
the anger
because I could never be sure
what to think
so this ink bled for me so that life could go on
but when I’m dead and gone
will you cease to be anything
more than a cliché?
or can they tell I love you still and always?
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