the first time I feel it
eyes watching me leave
I become a woman
beautiful, radiant, desired
my curves round in all the right places
swaying to the rhythm of each glance
my breasts perk
my entire body flowering
more supple
more lithe
my smile sparkling wide
my eyes shining from the light
that very few are able to find in me
with each touch
I am raised higher than the stars
able to see all the roads open to me
I laugh
I glow
but time fades all things
and as the glow dims and dies
so does my confidence
and at that first tepid glance
my eyes lose their colour
my hair dulls and frizzes
my curves transform
from sensual to fat
my skin sags and grays
my breasts drop
and tear from my chest
with each lash of those cold eyes
I lose a piece of my womanhood
until I am androgynous and unremarkable
a standing pile
of ugly bones and useless flesh
just another faceless mannequin
waiting for someone to make me a woman again
knowing it won’t last unless
I learn to do it myself
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