I feel the walls around me constricting
Just a little more
Looking up
He struggles to hold them at bay
He's asked me to stay, wait
So despite my every instinct to try
To find a way to escape
Set this room ablaze
Run
Here I am
Watching the storm in him rage
An internal battle he wages on himself
Fight by my side
Or save himself
And I've begged him so many times
If it will bring back your life to end mine
I'll sharpen the knife and turn away
So you can't see the tears streak down my face
But the word I can't say
Is goodbye
Because alone outside this room
I'd die anyway
But everyday it gets harder
My grip weakens
My power wanes
My arms shake
My heart is drained
I strain against my own demons
Testing my will to survive
Baiting me with lies and doubt
But I am not alone
He kisses me to keep me
From suffocating in self hate
Our eyes lock
It's excruciating to see the starlight fading
All I want is to take us somewhere
Anywhere
Away
Where we can breathe together again
Love without pain
A place
Where we aren't always watching the walls close in
Where we aren't always waiting for the walls to cave in
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The Waiting Room
January 24, 2024 by JL Clifford
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